-narrator has this trembling voice quirk when displaying emotions – …ok

-its a great book and enjoyable but main character is all over the place, author wants to have his cake and eat it by portraying MC old cold persona with innocent child version. a coming of age but he is already a grown man, making it like he is overcoming but is a genius, has a weak body but giving him power ups, misses his family but leaves….. OK? just ignore that, the rest is enjoyable which is the other 90%